Had such a nothing day yesterday. Woke up tired and just felt blah all day. It was a cold, rainy and miserable day. Wanted to take DS (darling son) to the park but it was too wet, so inside all day. And I wasted hours mucking around on this blog - accidently deleting my profile then finding it again (phew!) figuring out how to put a picture on etc. I tend to become fixated on things and just can't let it go until it's successfully completed. So frustrating sometimes!
Anyway, today is a new day. So bring it on! Unfortunately it's cold and rainy again, but I am determined to get out of the house today. If not to the park, then at least a walk around the block. DS is in desperate need of some exercise. Being house bound is not a good thing in the school holidays. At least we got to the movies on Monday and Tuesday and caught up with some friends. And last week we were at mums in the country where the DS and his cousins spent lots of time running around outside in the lovely country air.
Speaking of exercise, I really need to start doing some myself! I have been wanting to for ages now, but just can't seem to get motivated. Now that I'm not waking up hungover and feeling like crap I have no excuse. I bought some new runners about a month ago, and I have a heap of exercise DVDs that I used to do when DS was a baby, I just have to find some motivation! Over the last couple of years the weight has slowly crept up and I would dearly love to lose 10kg. I'm hoping that a pleasant side effect from not drinking is that I will lose a little bit of the weight, but I know that I need to start exercising too. I'm getting to an age now that it's much harder to shift weight and I know that I'll start to feel better in myself once I start exercising.
A strange thing happened on Monday. We went to the movies with a friend from school and his mum, whom I have become friendly with, and had a bite to eat afterwards. We went to a restaurant/cafe where we've been a few times before and on those occasions we enjoyed a few glasses of bubbly and chatted for hours while the boys played outside. This time we sat inside as it was so cold and ordered our food and drinks. I had a glass of diet coke and my friend had a lemon squash. She would normally have had a glass of wine or bubbly, but she said she would support me by not drinking alcohol. I told her that I was fine with her having alcohol, but she insisted. I thought that was really nice of her actually (She was the girl I mentioned in a previous post - she was saying how she drinks too much too) But the funny thing was, we were eating and drinking our soft drinks and chatting, and after a while I started to get that buzzy feeling you get after enjoying a couple of drinks. Was it just the feeling of enjoying good company and being on a natural high? I'm not sure, but in that moment I thought, I don't need a glass of wine or bubbly to have a good time. Maybe I've been wrong all this time? Anyway, it was a lovely feeling! We are going out for dinner on Saturday night with this same girl and her husband, plus another couple, so it will be interesting to see if the same thing happens.
I was chatting to mum this morning and she was asking me about how I am doing with the not drinking. She is thrilled that I am doing this as she knows I drink too much and has been wanting me to cut down for ages. She was asking me if DH is doing it (Dry July) too and I told her that he isn't. In fact, I told her, I have even gotten beers out of the fridge for him and it hasn't bothered me. Which is true. Maybe it's because I've never been a beer drinker, I don't know, but I wasn't tempted in the slightest. DH likes his booze too though. Often we would share a couple of bottles of wine together, which made me feel better as it meant I wasn't the only one drinking, therefore I didn't have a problem. But the difference is that he could go for nights alcohol free whereas I couldn't. And if I did on the rare occasion, I would be hanging out for the next night when I could have a drink again.
So, day 10 today. Who would have thought?!! I'm off to search the internet for Mrs D's book. They didn't have it in the book store that I looked in the other day, so I think it will be quicker to buy it online.