Hello blog, it's been a while! Sorry for neglecting you. I'm still here, just been slack with jotting my thoughts down. It's day 12 today. It feels good to be in double figures again. It means I'm getting further away from that last drink.
I'm feeling happier. Last week I was feeling flat and really depressed. Questioning my decision. Do I really need to be doing this? Was I really that bad? Surely I'll be ok now? Now that I know how good being sober feels surely I will be able to moderate? But of course I know the answer to these questions. I am here for a reason and I have to keep reminding myself what those reasons are. It's amazing how as time goes by you forget how bad things were. You forget how awful the hangovers were, how you never got anything done. How much time you wasted. How unmanageable your life had become. I don't want to get back on that roller coaster. I like here, with my feet firmly on the ground. It feels safe and comforting. I may feel unsteady for a bit while I get my balance back but that's ok. I'll get there.
Hi! I've found you.. will add you to my blog list now. Keep your eye on the prize through these early days and weeks.. remember the person you don't want to be (boozy and miserable) and picture yourself as the person you DO want to be (head held high, sober, calm & happy). You can do this!! xxx
ReplyDeleteThanks Mrs D! I will follow your advice. It is early days but I am feeling so happy to be sober. Your website has been invaluable and I am so grateful that you created it. You are an inspiration to me. Ax
ReplyDeleteYes! You will get there.
ReplyDeleteEventually I stopped questioning iif I was really that bad and just accepted that I finally felt "right". And that was so much better.
Thanks Anne, I hope so! I think accepting it is the key. There really can be no other way so I might as well accept it and not question it. Hopefully I'll get there! Ax
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