Wednesday 23 March 2016

So grateful

I nearly had a car accident this morning. I was driving the little guy to school and had right of way, when a car went through a stop sign. They did stop, looked the other way but didn't look left and I managed to slam on the brakes and miss them by centimetres. It was frightening! We were shaken up, but thankfully ok, as well as the elderly couple in the other car.

I am so thankful that I wasn't drinking last night. If I had been, I would have been feeling tired and grumpy, frustrated to be running late for school drop off. My reflexes might have been slower, and I might have slammed on the brakes a moment or two later and it might have been a completely different outcome.

I feel very grateful this morning.

I had a crazy, busy shift at work last night and didn't leave till 10pm, half an hour late (and we don;t get paid overtime). I was really frustrated that work continues to be so busy. That there isn't extra staff to lighten the load when we have so many sick patients on the ward.

A few months back, I would have dropped into the late night bottle shop on the way home and bought 2 bottles of wine. And I would have had a whole bottle and maybe opened the 2nd one, and I would have stayed up quite late drinking. This morning I would have been feeling tired and hungover.

I am just so grateful that that isn't me anymore.

It is the last day of school tomorrow before Easter and 2 weeks school holidays. I'm looking forward to it. I will be up every day with the little guy, happy to spend the morning with him. Instead of trying to sleep off a hangover, leaving him to his own devices. I won't have his little voice saying 'are you going to get up now mum?' It breaks my heart that that is how it used to be.

I have to remind myself that that isn't me anymore. And I am so grateful for that.
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10 comments:

  1. Time and the Bottle23 March 2016 at 11:10

    Glad to hear that you are ok and doing great. You are in a great place. Stay there. :)

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    1. Angie4 April 2016 at 10:50

      Thanks TATB. I have been thinking of you. I hope you are going well. A x

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  2. Unknown23 March 2016 at 11:51

    Glad you're OK! And I'm also glad you're in such a good place, especially compared to where you (and I) used to be xo

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    1. Angie4 April 2016 at 10:52

      Thanks Thirsty, I'm feeling good. I have down days but I think that's just life. I never want to go back to where I was. A x

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  3. Untipsyteacher24 March 2016 at 06:03

    Oh, I can hear your little guy's voice!
    I am so happy you are okay!
    You remind me to be grateful, too.
    Hugs!
    xo
    Wendy

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    1. Angie4 April 2016 at 10:53

      Thanks Wendy. I think practicing gratitude helps. I have to remind myself how lucky I am and not ruin it all by drinking again. A x

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  4. Ainsobriety24 March 2016 at 14:48

    I'm so glad you are ok.
    Don't let the past dull the shine on today. You are really doing it.
    Each and every day is another opportunity to celebrate life.

    I know it's hard to think of the times I let down my kids. But they only really want me today. If I am present and interested, they are happy.

    Enjoy every minute of your time off.

    Anne

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    1. Angie4 April 2016 at 10:55

      Thanks Anne, I am enjoying the school holidays. I love spending time with my little guy, especially now I don't have hangovers! A x

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  5. Groundhog Girl2 April 2016 at 22:32

    Hi Angie, hope you ok. You seem to have been a bit silent. Just checking in with you. Big hugs GG.

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    1. Angie4 April 2016 at 10:55

      Hi Ginger, I am ok thanks. Day 134 today! A x

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