Slowly beginning to tell people

Dinner with my in-laws was nice. Hubby told my MIL that I hadn't had a drink for 100 days and she congratulated me and gave me a hug and kiss. My husband has 2 brothers (one older and one younger), the older one was asking me why I wasn't drinking so I told him about my endometriosis and how it is recommended that you don't drink alcohol. I also told him that I had found myself drinking every night and I was tired of it. My other brother-in-law didn't even notice or if he did, he didn't say anything. My FIL didn't say anything either. He is in recovery himself but he is 75 and doesn't talk about it as a rule. Not sure if I'll broach him on the subject one day. I was secretly hoping he would get me a 3 month chip from one of his meetings (he still goes every week and my MIL goes with him most of the time) but I doubt that he will.

Yesterday I caught up with a lovely girl I used to work with. We had a nice lunch and a really good chat. As we were walking back to our cars we were saying how we must catch up again soon and not leave it so long, the usual thing you say when you catch up with someone you haven't seen for a while. Anyway, she said something about having a glass of wine and I told her I'm not drinking anymore. I told her what I had told my BIL and she was really supportive in her comments. We chatted a bit about how mums are drinking wine to cope and that it's not a good thing. So when we do catch up next; hopefully for a bbq at our favourite park, she won't be surprised to see me not drinking and I won't have to explain why again.

So, 103 days today. I have passed my record!! I signed up for Belle's team 180 challenge, and I am going to make it! I will have 6 months sober by the time I finish it and hopefully after that my next challenge will be one year! I know challenges can be tricky because having an end date can mean that you give in at the end, but I feel strong enough to keep going this time. I think I am finally accepting the idea of forever. But having said that, I am not focusing too much ahead and mainly concentrating on the here and now. Less overwhelming that way.

Hubby is really proud of me, which is nice. He made a comment the other day about how he has cut back a lot on his drinking now that I'm not drinking anymore, and it's true. So it's good for the whole family (well, all three of us!). I just wish I had done it years ago. So much time wasted, and I will never get that time back. Especially my son's early years, that is my greatest regret. But I can't turn back the clock. So I have to concentrate on the present and be the best person I can be now.

I have lost a kilo this last week!! I'm hoping that I will finally start to lose weight! I remember SM saying how it takes about 100 days before you start losing weight, so I hope she is right. I am hoping to lose 15kg. I realise that that's a big ask but you never know!

A x