Day 2. It feels good to have day 1 over and done with. Sometimes that's the hardest day. Now I feel like I can get into the business of being sober and each day takes me further away from that last drink.
I am feeling positive about this. It feels different somehow, and I hope this feeling is here to stay.
You may have noticed I changed my blog template. I thought I would try something different. A new beginning. Not sure if I will keep it, but I'll give it a go for a while.
So, Saturday today. Having a lazy morning so far. It's hubby's day for a sleep-in, so I feel that I can write on here in peace. He doesn't know about my blog, and I'm not sure if I want him finding out. He knows I want to cut down on drinking and supports me when I have had my periods of sobriety. But he doesn't think I have an alcohol problem. And I have let him believe that. I have spoken about how I can drink too much sometimes, but because I can stop for weeks at a time, he doesn't think I have a problem. I know I need to change this. But not yet. I will just tell him that I want to challenge myself to quit drinking for 100 days and see what he says. I know I should be honest about this, but I'm not ready.
My son is in the background and has been asking me what I am doing. What are you writing about mum? I find myself getting irritated with him, for interrupting me, for intruding into this special place I have created just for me. But he doesn't know, it's not his fault. He is just curious as to what I am doing. I need to have more patience. Something I need to work on.
So, here I am. Day 2. And so glad to be here.