The little guys started back at school today. Grade 4!! It doesn't seem that long since he started prep (you might know it as kindergarten) and now he is in middle school. How did that happen?! I was watching the mums of the newbies this morning and was a little sad that that won't be me again. Still, I have my beautiful boy and I am so thankful for that.
Today finds me at day 71. A drop of alcohol hasn't touched my lips for 10 whole weeks! It feels good to have those first difficult few weeks behind me. I am cruising along quite happily. I have fleeting moments of pure happiness (that elusive pink cloud maybe?) but mostly I just feel content. But as I mentioned in my last post, I don't want to get complacent. I read blogs, listen to the bubble hour, lurk on the Living Sober website and log in to the Hello Sunday Morning website most days, but is that enough? I still haven't gotten to a meeting, but now that the little guy is back at school I am hoping to get to one one of these days. Does it matter that I'm just cruising along? Should I be doing more? I don't know. I read about other people who give up drinking and they talk about their amazing new lives and how they find themselves, and how life is so much better. I am thrilled to be not drinking, but other than not drinking, my life is pretty much the same. I really want an amazing new life too, but I'm not sure it's going to happen.
We went to our friends place for dinner on Friday night. I told my friend C in advance that I still wasn't drinking because I didn't want any pressure to have a glass, but I needn't have worried. She told me she would join me not drinking as she was not long back from a booze filled holiday. So I was curious to see if she would stick to it. She ended up having 2 glasses of wine and then stopped. Normally she would have more, so I thought that was pretty good. I was happy drinking my diet coke and we had a great night. Her husband had quite a few though! It's funny how you notice these things when you aren't drinking!
I'm kind of lost for words today. I want to blog more often but I just don't have words of wisdom to share. Maybe it's because I am tired today. One of my New Year's resolutions (why do I even bother with these?!) was to start going to bed earlier. But I got home from work last night at 10pm and I can't just go to bed. So I sat up and watched the rest of the mens final in the tennis, then a couple of episodes of Nashville (my new favourite show!!) So of course I'm tired. But I am not hungover and that makes all the difference!