Monday, 1 February 2016

Cruising along

The little guys started back at school today. Grade 4!! It doesn't seem that long since he started prep (you might know it as kindergarten) and now he is in middle school. How did that happen?! I was watching the mums of the newbies this morning and was a little sad that that won't be me again. Still, I have my beautiful boy and I am so thankful for that.

Today finds me at day 71. A drop of alcohol hasn't touched my lips for 10 whole weeks! It feels good to have those first difficult few weeks behind me. I am cruising along quite happily. I have fleeting moments of pure happiness (that elusive pink cloud maybe?) but mostly I just feel content. But as I mentioned in my last post, I don't want to get complacent. I read blogs, listen to the bubble hour, lurk on the Living Sober website and log in to the Hello Sunday Morning website most days, but is that enough? I still haven't gotten to a meeting, but now that the little guy is back at school I am hoping to get to one one of these days. Does it matter that I'm just cruising along? Should I be doing more? I don't know. I read about other people who give up drinking and they talk about their amazing new lives and how they find themselves, and how life is so much better. I am thrilled to be not drinking, but other than not drinking, my life is pretty much the same. I really want an amazing new life too, but I'm not sure it's going to happen.

We went to our friends place for dinner on Friday night. I told my friend C in advance that I still wasn't drinking because I didn't want any pressure to have a glass, but I needn't have worried. She told me she would join me not drinking as she was not long back from a booze filled holiday. So I was curious to see if she would stick to it. She ended up having 2 glasses of wine and then stopped. Normally she would have more, so I thought that was pretty good.  I was happy drinking my diet coke and we had a great night. Her husband had quite a few though! It's funny how you notice these things when you aren't drinking!

I'm kind of lost for words today. I want to blog more often but I just don't have words of wisdom to share. Maybe it's because I am tired today. One of my New Year's resolutions (why do I even bother with these?!) was to start going to bed earlier. But I got home from work last night at 10pm and I can't just go to bed. So I sat up and watched the rest of the mens final in the tennis, then a couple of episodes of Nashville (my new favourite show!!) So of course I'm tired. But I am not hungover and that makes all the difference!

A x


  1. Well done on day 71! Well I didn't get a new life, I still have the same old one too:) But I like the one I have better now. It's easier to handle things as they come rather than ignoring/procrastinating. And when something occurs to me that I want to do I'm often surprised at the fact that I can just GO AHEAD A DO IT.

  2. Huge congrats, Angie! I think that for the first six months or so all you can/should do is focus on yourself and getting strong. Now (eleven months in) I feel ready to start changing stuff about my life. Watch this space... :-) xx

  3. Those were great words of wisdom.
    Booze free your life carries on. You live it easier and free er.

    Blog when inspired, or shaken or happy or mad. Blog when you are bored. Do whatever works.

    I find keeping in touch on the blogs reminds me that beginning again would never be easy. Not that I want to. I feel like I have grasped the golden ring now, so why would I let go?

    But since life has its own way of shaking things up I try to give myself more support instead of less. I tried things the hard way before. It was no where near as fun.

    Just enjoy. Maybe you will be inspired to try something you have always wanted to try. Maybe you still just need to relax and be. Just being is a skill we all need to practice.

    You are doing awesome. What would a glass of wine added to your night? No one thing.



  4. Hi, i think thinking everyone is living a marvelous sober life is putting pressure on yourself. my life is the same when i don't drink, up and down. but whats different is the freedom, i find not drinking just liberating. i love having no regrets and i love not having a hangover.

    I went to the 40th on sat night and it was good. i would be lying if i said i had massive craic as its just different not drinking on a night like that. But i also noticed again how differently i drink to others. Other people just seem more relaxed about it, almost take or leave it. Also when it was time to go my husband just happily put his drink down and left with me, I would never ever do that!!! and always want to be the last standing!! i don't know. i haven't really figured it out, I wonder sometimes why i am not drinking. Like genuinely I am confused about it all but i think watching others that night got me closer to the answers.
    blog when u feel like it i say : )

  5. Hey Angie - great to read a post by you. 71 days is fab! How lovely to hear about your moments of pure happiness, and contentment sounds pretty darned good to me.. Red xx

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  7. Hi Angie,
    So happy you are 71 days!
    I feel wordless too, right now.
    I didn't make any resolutions this year, but there are habits I still want to change.

  8. Go Angie! Congrats on 10 weeks - good on you! I totally agree with Suburban Betty - I don't think we get a new life, but we get a new perspective on the life we have and a vastly improved capacity to handle it, and a better appreciation for the life we DO have - instead of a miserable loathing of our own wasting of it.



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