Monday, 22 August 2016

9 months

Today I am 9 months sober! I still can't believe it sometimes. Who knew I could do it?!

My life has improved so much in these last 9 months. From the outside, everything looks exactly the same. The biggest improvement is internal. It's how I feel inside. Everything is so much better! I'm finally believing that all the wonderful things that long term sober people describe happening, is finally coming true for me.

My son had his First Holy Communion last Saturday evening. The church service was lovely and I was so proud of my little guy. He carried the candle up the aisle and the look of concentration on his face was priceless. He looked like a little angel.

We couldn't afford to have all the family at a restaurant, so decided to have them back at our place. We live in a 2 bedroom town house so we don't have a lot of room, but we've had the little guys birthdays here several times and it's been okay, so we knew we could do it.

Of course though, it involved a lot of stress!! The big guy doesn't handle stress very well so I was dreading it! But it all worked out in the end. Mum and I made a couple of salads, a few desserts and I made the Communion cake. I have never made a fancy occasion cake like this before so I was scared it would be a disaster, but it worked! I was so proud of myself. I really think I couldn't have pulled everything off if I was still drinking. Or maybe I could have, but I would have been a hundred times more stressed!!

It was a really lovely evening and everyone had a great time. There were 22 of us in our little house and it worked out fine. We could have used some more chairs but we all managed. And all our mad tidying paid off as our place looked great (although there is still papers and a heap of 'stuff' crammed in cupboards that I will have to go through, but oh well!)

I'm going to a meeting tonight to get my 9 month chip. I would really love to stay in as it's a feral day, but I will make an effort and go. I am always glad when I am there.

I just want to say to anyone who is hovering around the 100 day mark and are toying with whether to drink again or not, I highly recommend not to! Everything gets so much better once if you just keep going. Life really does get better. I think by finally surrendering to a life of not drinking, I am finally learning true happiness. I still have a way to go, but life is already so much better.

A x


23 comments:

  1. Angie - congratulations!! That's so great, 9 months, what a milestone. It's fab to read how happy you are. And the event-planning; whoa! That sounds a big deal, and you handled it so well. Isn't it amazing what we thought of as such insurmountable tasks pre-sober are actually the things we can now take such pride in achieving with (relative) ease. Sending big congratulatory hugs from the UK. Red xx

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    1. Thanks Red. Everything is easier when you are sober! Thanks for the hug. A x

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  2. Wonderful post! So happy to read it! Awesome to hear life is great at 9 months! Congrats!

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    1. Thanks HD, I still can't believe it myself sometimes! A x

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  3. Go Angie! 9 months and you are rocking it. I am nearly at the hundred, I am not wobbling re alcohol but I am very low. Reading this has made it seem doable and worthwhile. As you now I have been with you most of the way but only was able to join the count 93 days ago. Congrats to you for being such a trooper. By the way, that paperwork shoved in cupboards may still be there 6 months later ha ha, we all do it.

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    1. Thanks Ginger. I hope you perk up soon. I know that low feeling too well. It IS doable. You just have to stay strong and take it one day at a time. I really hope the paperwork isn't still in the cupboard 6 months from now lol! A x

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  4. No truer words, Angie!
    The longer I am sober, the more gifts I receive!
    BIG hugs on your 9 months!
    xo
    Wendy

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    1. Thanks Wendy. I'm looking forward to receiving more sober gifts. A x

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  5. Congratulations Angie! 9 months is awesome. And we both share today!

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  6. Angie, fantastic achievement. I'm trailing you at nearly 8 months. Still lots of battles and just seeing what life is really like without the edge taken off.

    Justonemore

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    1. Thanks Justonemore. How are you going? A x

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  7. I sort of get along. Don't much like my job and still miss the drinking culture but I haven't been really tempted. Lost a lot of weight, got fitter. Lost a few friends along the way - old drinking colleagues who don't get it. On the whole, better and learning to live with the sober me. More reflective and I think I get depressed and used the booze to medicate but that's familiar story. But you are doing brilliantly.

    Justonemore

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    1. Sounds like you are doing great! Lucky you for losing weight, I've hardly lost any. But I have been eating chocolate everyday so that may have something to do with it! Life is definitely better sober. I think you are doing brilliantly too. A x

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  8. What a lovely inspiring post and great timing to help reinforce staying sober after 100 days at my 119th day. Congrats on 9 months and having a good party for your little boy.

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    1. Thank you. Well done on 119 days! You are doing great! Have you signed up for team 180 of Belle's challenge? That really helped keep me on track this time. A x

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  9. Wonderful Angie :) Just wonderful. xx

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  10. OMG! 9 months! So so proud of you. And you sound so happy. You are a true inspiration, Angie!

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    1. Thank you Time. I still can't believe it sometimes!. I never imagined I could feel like this. And all I did was stop drinking! How are you going? A x

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  11. Hey Angie, just thinking of you and hoping all us well in your world. Miss your posts, come up with something soon even if it's your to do list ha ha. Big hugs Ginger.

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  12. I'm with Ginger!
    I hope you are okay!
    xo
    Wendy

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  13. I keep coming here in the hope I see a response or a new post. I miss your posts and my head has gone to a worried place about you, your family, your sone, your job. And the other thing we don't want to think about......
    Email me if you don't want to reply to my comment here. gingergroundhog@gmail.com
    Sending you love and hugs.

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